How my husband-to-be and I found each other again after 5 years

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If I’ve learned anything at all these past few months, it’s that God undoubtedly has a plan for each one of us. And the timing for that plan is important.

This is the story of how me and my fiance, Cristian, fell in love again after being apart for five years. And let me tell you, it was a long journey — but so worth it.





We met six years ago at BYU-Idaho.

We ended up in the same ward, but there were no ties between us initially. Cristian had a dance class with one of Sonja’s roommates, and those two become instant friends. We met when Cristian came by her apartment one day and started talking. He was also a teacher in Sunday school and Sonja was usually in that class. There was an instant connection on the spiritual level. It wasn’t long after that that Cristian went on a sabbatical from school and landed in Washington for a year. Only a few months after moving, he discovered that Sonja was home from school only three hours south of his place just outside Seattle. Being drawn to her, he made several visits down to see her.

162654_1658740221827_5636486_nNovember 2010, when Cristian and Lisa came to surprise Sonja in Portland during the Thanksgiving break

CRISTIAN: We fell for one another.

132345_1807408907876_2226394_oOutside the Portland temple, November 2010
132427_1807453588993_1513226_oChristmas 2010
August 2011 at the Washington County fair

But this was a chapter of my life full of uncertainty and unbalance. I didn’t know what I wanted, but I made a rash decision to withdraw from the relationship and Sonja’s life. This was the worst decision I ever made.

SONJA: I had priesthood blessings and impressions that lead me to feel like a future with Cristian was a sure thing, and being 19 years old, I was so confused as to why he would leave. Were my impressions wrong? It didn’t make any sense to me that he could leave when I felt so sure that he was supposed to be my future.

CRISTIAN: I pursued another life with someone else, and was married 19 months later. It was a forever good-bye to the prospect of us being together. However, life does what it does best and changes everything. My wife presented me with divorce papers, and I was left to my own once again. Realizing loss and hurt, I came to regret being the injurer in so many relationships in the past. One in particular.

SONJA: It really was a forever good-bye once he got married. Sure, things didn’t end well with us at all, but I loved him. And was afraid I always would. So, when he got married, I knew that was the end. So I had to try my hardest to forget about him. And it wasn’t easy.

CRISTIAN: Shortly after the divorce, I went to travel to see old friends I hadn’t seen in forever. Among the friends I visited was Lisa Milne, Sonja’s old roommate I befriended years ago. I remember sitting at Lisa’s table and telling her that I actually just signed the paperwork for divorce. Once she could tell that I was in a healthy and happy place, she made it a point to tell me, “You know Sonja is still single…” And from the moment she mentioned Sonja’s name something went unsettled within me. Her name burned in my heart. I don’t know why it bothered me so much. It was like a hook catching me inside my chest and I couldn’t shake it.

I remember being so frustrated because I couldn’t figure out why her name hit me the way it did. I responded to Lisa by telling her that if I ever thought for a moment that there was even the slightest chance… It was just one of those things where the way that I had left her was so hard. And how would that look anyway?? “So, I’m single again. Want to start talking?” I expressed that I didn’t think there would be any way. She responded, “Well, based off the last conversation that she and I ever had about you, I think she deserves to know that you are in a happier and better place spiritually and emotionally.” And that just would not leave me. And so for weeks Sonja’s name just kept ringing in my ears.

Within 2 weeks of my visit Sonja went to Lisa’s house to celebrate a birthday party. I ‘liked’ one of the photos they took and tagged on Facebook.


Within a week I got a notification on my LinkedIn page. When I pulled up the screen to find out who visited my profile Sonja came up. I was shocked. She knew that I had like that photo, because Facebook tells you. I also knew for a fact that Sonja would be well aware that by looking at my profile on LinkedIn I would get a notification of her visit. So now we both knew that each was on the others mind. I had no idea what to do from there. But I knew I would have to do something soon.

SONJA: I will never forget the day of Lisa’s daughter’s birthday party. There I sat with Lisa on her living room couch, with children playing and watching a kid’s movie. She decided THAT was a good time to tell me.

“So, guess who I saw two weeks ago.”



“What. WHY? WHERE?”

She then told me about the divorce. I didn’t know how to take it. She also told me he had told her that I was perfect, and the one he let get away.

I cried on my 45 minute drive home.

I was so mad at him! If he had realized that 5 years ago we could have had a life together by now!

But, the Atonement of Jesus Christ is very real and forgiveness is a wonderful thing.

CRISTIAN: A week or so later I received a visit from a friend of mine. She asked me what was new in my life and I had told her about my visit to Utah. I told her of Sonja, who of course had been on my mind ever since. And I told her that I didn’t know what to do about it. She suggested that I write her an apology letter for the way I left her some five years ago. As soon as she mentioned the letter I knew instantly that that was exactly the course of action I was supposed to take. Though when to write it was the question. So I talked to my mom about it. I asked her what she thought. Sonja knows that I’m thinking about her and I know that I have also been on her mind. Should I write the letter in six weeks when the divorce was final or should should I move right away? My mother didn’t hesitate and told me I need to write it now; “Don’t wait.”

While I was driving home one evening after picking up some groceries I was saying a silent prayer about when exactly I should write the letter. I know I should do it soon, but how soon? As I was thinking these thoughts-in real time-driving on the highway towards my home, a car pulled out of the left lanes directly in front of me. There was no traffic but it seemed to move deliberately into my path. Of course, this vehicle had my attention. Then the license plate caught my eye and I instantly lost my breath. “Sonja.” On the license plate! Spelled exactly the same as her name, which is very uncommon.


I about had a mini heart attack. At that moment in time I truly understood that this was not something of coincidence. These were deliberate directions. I got home, unloaded my groceries, and went downstairs to write the letter. At 3 a.m., with a 3-page letter on my desk and a dozen rough draft cuts laying half crumpled on the floor, I finally went to bed. I didn’t send the letter until Tuesday. I knew that she worked for the Standard-Examiner because it was on her LinkedIn. So I simply mailed the letter to the main office. Friday morning she got the letter.

SONJA: He had a mini heart attack when he saw that license plate, and I had one when I saw that letter sitting on my desk.

Thank goodness I worked at 6 a.m. and was the first and only person in the newsroom at the time. I figured he’d contact me eventually, but I thought it was at least MONTHS away. I couldn’t believe it was actually happening. The love of my life, the first and only man I ever truly loved and who I thought was gone for forever, was reaching out to me again. I read the letter over and over again and took a couple of days to decide if I was going to write him back. But who was I kidding? Of course I was going to write him back. His letter was what I had prayed for in the celestial room of the Bountiful temple just a few days earlier. It helped me forgive him. So automatically. I could tell how sincere he was. How changed he was. I wrote a letter back, had it in an envelope all addressed and ready to go by Sunday night — all it needed was a stamp. Then, I woke up at 4 a.m. the next morning in a panic — I knew I needed to call him instead. Not because there were things in the letter I didn’t want to say or think I should, but I just knew. I didn’t know why, but I said, “OK, Lord, I will call him.”

CRISTIAN: Monday morning I got to the office. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and set it on the desk only to notice that I had a Facebook Messenger notification. When I pulled it up my heart skipped when I saw Sonja’s face next to a message that said, “Hey Crishy, I got your letter…I would like to call you. You can say no if you want to. Love, Sonja.” Let me just say that my internal response was that even if I had lions ripping the legs off my body I would take that phone call. I would not miss it. It was later that evening around 6 o’clock that I got her call.

The first words over the phone were “Hey, Crishy.” Her voice, so full of love, forgiveness and kindness, rocked me to my core. The first 15 minutes we spoke about the letter and my apology. The next 15 minutes we spoke about her having gone through the temple. After that I simply asked her, “What have you done with the last five years?” And then we just caught up. Like we never missed a beat. She was so different and I was so different to her. The phone call lasted for 1 hour and 7 minutes. I initiated the close of our conversation by telling her that to my great regret and chagrin I had to go. But I would love to call her again. She agreed that that would be more than okay. So we hung up. She texted me only moments later: “You are so amazing. And I have missed you so.”

After that was a string of text messages. Eventually those texts and Facebook messages turned into phone calls and conversations. During one of our conversations I told her that I was really anxious to see if we can build something between us again. And I was willing to put in the weeks and months it may take. One day while visiting the temple I prayed about the situation. I was making plans in my heart and head to take my time to make sure that I got this right. But for some reason that just did not feel right. I felt like this was a bad decision. The thought came to my mind, What are you waiting for? Why prolong this? I naturally thought back, because it’s the proper thing to do and it would be foolish to rush in. But the more I resisted the worse I felt. So I left the temple with a bothersome feeling that I shouldn’t wait. But I still resisted it. The next day I went to visit my marriage therapist that I had been working with for some months to return a DVD that she loaned me. I handed it to her and as I was making my way out the door she stopped me. She said, “I was thinking about it last night and I want to ask you, what are you waiting for?” At that moment I was stunned. My heart seized up. What the heck is going on? Who else is in on this? I told her that I felt like things were worth the time you put in them and I wanted to put a lot of time into this. She again asked me, “What are you waiting for?” I realized that she didn’t accept my answer. She asked me, “Are you not over your ex wife?” “No, you know I am.” “Are you not worthy?” “No, I’m worthy.” She repeated, “Then what are you waiting for? Is 6 years not enough? Do you really feel that after all these signs and all the miracles that have somehow brought you two back into one another’s lives you should wait on this any longer?” I was caught with guile and I could deny it no more. Sonja and I were supposed to be together and we needed to move without any hesitation.

SONJA: And I knew I was going to marry him as soon as I finished reading that letter.

CRISTIAN: So, I made a decision to drive the 12 hours from Seattle to Layton, Utah that Friday night. I met her on the grounds of the Ogden temple on August 6th, where, for the first time in 5 years, we’re back in each other’s arms. There we also shared a second First kiss, and I’m pretty sure that somewhere in the galaxy we caused a meteor shower.

SONJA: After all that time, he was still the one for me. It was so obvious. Every guy that I’d dated since him couldn’t compare even in the slightest, and I’d had a few pretty terrible dating experiences since. So when he came back into my life, it made so much sense. Those 6 years of frustration, loneliness and growth were so necessary. He had been the right person all along — it just hadn’t been the right time.

Us, outside the Portland temple exactly a month before our wedding date (November 4th, 2016)

CRISTIAN: Miracles have lined up for us ever since. Somehow within weeks of deciding that we would be married in the Portland Temple my company reassigned me to the city of Portland. Both of our families have shown enormous support and although it’s incredibly fast, things are just undeniably the way they’re supposed to be. I was always meant to be with her. And she was made for me.


P.S. The very last time we saw each other before our relationship ended was when I dropped him off at Portland’s Union Station in August 2011 so he could catch a train back to Washington. It was not a good experience for either of us. So, Cristian wanted to take me back there to make some better memories. We thought that taking some engagements there would do the trick.

We even took some at the same exact bench he was sitting on when I said goodbye to him.







I can’t wait to be with this man for eternity. 12 more days!

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